Apparently you can.

I first noticed my left eye didn’t see as well as my right in high school. Std 8 Science, copying down transparencies from the back row. It didn’t bother me much, and it was several years later before I decided to do something about it and get some glasses. I enjoyed having glasses at first. But the more I used them and the more dependant I became on them, the less I liked the idea that I’d be doing so for the rest of my life.

I am short sighted with mild astigmatism in my left eye. Or so I thought. A few years back I began contemplating LASIK surgery. It was out of my reach financially at that time, but I thought I’d get it done one day …

A few months back when my Hubby & I were discussing finances he suggested that it was about time I found out if I was a suitable candidate, and I duly made a booking (more than a month in advance) for this morning. I tried ever so hard not to get my hopes up, but so many of my friends had told me what great successes their operations were and how happy they were that they’d had it done. I found myself imagining what it would be like to read the DTSV blurb from the couch without my glasses and other small things.

This morning I discovered that my corneas are too thin for LASIK  surgery, and worse. I don’t have a mild astigmatism, I have this. Sorry if the pictures are a bit grim. Eye pictures usually are aren’t they? I’m not a severe case, but the fact remains that you can’t fix it. In fact, it’s quite likely to get worse.

Deep down I probably always believed that my eyes could be fixed. Surely they could, they’re not even that bad to start with. Now I sit here with pupils that are dilated from the drops they put in them, and my head hurts from the dilated pupils in an office full of computer screens and florescent lighting, and my hope is gone.

Yes I have glasses and contacts, but I will never wake up in the morning with 20/20 vision, and I will never go to bed with it.

Excuse me while I sulk about that.